music to my ears

How many times have you listened to a song and thought... "Hey, I can relate to this, completely."? How many times have you chosen to listen to music that levels with your mood? (i.e. sad music whilst you're down.. upbeat whilst you're happy..) Why do we do that? Doesn't it remind us of what we are trying to forget? Doesn't it make us feel worse?


My hypothesis is that music has become more than an ambient audio that is called upon for special occasions and/or to distract oneself from sleep on public transport. It has become therapy. It has become a place your mind needs to go to, to repair, to vent, to confront...

the rhythm slowing my heartbeat

the lyrics mesmerising my mind
the song now on repeat

until and after i know every line


you're describing him
you're describing my life
the beat, the rhythm
it's all just right


it's leading me away
into a different world
reality starts to fade
as i begin to unfurl


exploring the alternative
the 'might have been', the chances
if i had chosen to forgive
if i had not chosen to be askance


all the problems i have faced
all written and told to myself
helping me see my mistakes
helping my emotional health


oh music to my ears
you are my best of friends
i love you oh so dear
no doubt, til the end

don't give up, just because of the downs.

Ah... nothing beats the emotions of the beginning of potential love... The excitement, the chase, the guessing, the nerves... the memories to-be. The chance and possibilities of a happily ever after. No matter how many times I fall or my heart gets shattered. I'd never want to give up on love for these reasons. And of course because right now, I feel very hopeful with this guy :)

In short... he makes me smile... :D

catching your gaze

from across the room

sending me into a daze

my heart starts to bloom

smiling and laughing

at your every move

singing and dancing

but always looking at you

a hug out of no where

sends my heart beating fast

i would've fainted, i swear

if i knew it'd forever last

words, that'd mean the world

to me, to my emotions

from your lips, they unfurled

just part of conversation


but no matter there
cuz i have no expectations
just living in the moment here
with you in this revelation


step by step is what we'll take
to get from here to there
and it will be what we make
that we'll keep, love and care


just smile with me now
and cheer the night away
don't think of the downs
cuz it'll always be okay

Manipulative, Selfish, Ass!

There are many ways to learn a life lesson. Regretfully, most people learn it the hard way, by direct experience. There are equal chances of meeting a good person and a bad one. But the bad ones always stun me with their lack of consideration for everyone else. 

I don't hate a lot of things in this world but those people must be in the top 2. The other would be the same people with additional traits such as: manipulative, scheming, conniving... etc. Those that calculate their every move in life to benefit themselves. Those that I wish to never come into contact with. Those that I wish nothing good for. Those like him.

manipulation is your game

to get whatever you want

you never lose, only gain

nothing you won't or can't

you had me in your grasp

you had complete control

but how long did it last?

before the end of the lull

did you think it was right?

to treat me as you did

did you think i wouldn't fight?

don't treat me like a kid

you are unbelievable

a dark, cold nightmare

treating me like a tool

didn't you even care?

i can't get my head

around who you really are

the lies you gracefully fed

you left me... scarred

i depise your ways

your lack in consideration

for you, it'll sure be okay

be what of me, from your actions?

i should've seen the signs

i should've seen it all

you really are one of that kind

who just wants me to fall

but you don't need to wait

before you're able to see

how i've changed my fate

to what i choose it to be

you're smiling now

you think i'm crushed

but you'll be wowed

by what you've lost!

you'd have nothing to gain

you would lose it all

that's when i'd call 'game'

when you'd finally fall

but i am not like you

i have a heart and conscience

i don't treat everyone like fools

that is why you'll see no vengeance

just 'live' your days out

the way you came in

confident and without

a care beneath your skin

you'll do just fine

or maybe you won't

either way i don't mind

what you do or don't