more thoughts...

"If a tree were to fall in the forest, and no one heard, does it make a sound?" - I say yes. Because if someone were to die in the middle of nowhere, reality is, they still died. If a heart 'breaks' and no one heard, it's still broken...


Leaving things until it's too late, is almost human nature. We hear the warnings, but we don't actually listen. One should know when to pay attention, when to take great care and when it is just simply too late. Should, but don't.

unknown ripples

in uncharted waters

not such an issue

until it gets closer

don't take for granted

anything while it's calm

just one little glance

and you'll be in alarm

changes can occur

within a few seconds

it becomes a blur

so pay some attention

don't abuse my kindness

while it's afloat on the surface

this can turn into quite a mess

if you don't take great grace

"No one wants to be alone..." most of the time. There are times where I just want to go somewhere no one can find me. A place where I can express all of the sorrow, I may have, without question. To just cry it all out... 

i want to seek

a patch of earth

where i could weep

away the pain at heart

if only these tears

can remain in the sea

i'll never have to hear

myself sorry and weak

but even if i bury it 

beneath six feet of soil

it will still exist

despite the toil

even if i wash it away

it'll come back again

just like the waves

a difference without change

Best Long-Distant Relationship!

So, off the topic of guys for a while cuz my craziest, most beautiful girls are on their way HERE!! These two girls mean the world to me! They are truely family!

Danni && Dilek

2010

They were here around New Years and I can't believe it's been 7 months already... now they are back again :) I feel really, really happy but at the same time kinda annoyed at myself that I don't come and visit them like they visit me.

It's been 3 and a half years since I left Shepparton and parted from these girls... But our friendship hasn't faded a single day. Honestly, I think this is the best long-distant relationship in the history of the world!

Danni & Mong & Dilek

2007

We all only just started hanging out at the beginning of year 9 and I left at the end of that year but the friendship was is strong! I could honestly sit here all week and write about the good memories we've had (red bull and a webcam = crazy!), but I think I'm gonna go and prepare for the new ones we're about to have...

I love you girls!!

xoxox

simple and pure

What kind of relationship do you think you have or would have? Open? Exclusive? Are you the clingy type? Honestly I don't have enough experience to give advice or guide anyone but hearing about all the technicality everyday.. makes everyone feel like they're an expert. Can make you think twice about thinking twice, before 'making a move'..

I want that special feeling when I see a certain someone. I don't have control over it, I don't look at them up and down, then ask about their entire life story and background, to like them in that way. I just do.. I've had that feeling about twice in my life. It makes me so giddy and I don't know, just good. It makes finding a special someone simpler.. not just by going from one person to another with a crazy criteria they gotta fit... cuz the feeling says it all..

I like old-movies-love stories. I like how holding hands would be a big deal, making her happy would mean everything to him. He would defend her with his life! I want that. I want pureness. I want simplicity and its finest. But then again.. what girl doesn't..?

i want a love story
pure, from start til finish
ending; sweet and happy
with a magical kiss

keep me near
safe in your arms
make it clear
that i'll never be harmed

restrict my distance
so i can't miss you
don't allow a chance
for my conscience to choose

keep me close enough to devour
so close, attached to your heart
like a scent to a flower
til death do us part

Source of Love

Music downloading. Everyone does it. When I do, when I find a new song I like... I would put it on repeat for ages then stop listening for a while then it goes on my favourites list... (really long list)..

I remember after watching Rugrats in Paris, I absolutely loved the song I Want a Mom That'll Last Forever by Cyndi Lauper.. It played when Chuckie was looking out the window of the plane going to Paris.. It was such a touching scene. After I found the title I downloaded the song.. but.. I didn't listened to it. I still haven't. I don't want to even think about the possibility I might ever lose her. 

There's this girl I knew from high school... we were kinda friends when she first came to the school, never really liked her... when she started going out with my friend, I was cool with it.. but after the first 6 months I started getting annoyed at her. People change in relationships but I hate seeing how much she controls him.. this led to us not talking for a while... months even I think.. but I couldn't lose him and I just got over it. To be honest, I really don't remember the details or anything.. and this was just last year. 

The point is, after they broke up she started going out with this kid and it bugged the crap outta me that she was flaunting him to the world - most of all, to my friend. Skip a few chapters... I almost got suspended for cyber-bullying.. Good thing I hadn't started a blog yet... would have been way worse. I've put enough detail into this anecdote but just know that.. lines were crossed in the cyber-war.. lines that lead to personal distraught. Lines that were unknown to us. We felt terrible.. and were only sorry for that aspect.

I've always hated 'ya-mum' jokes. I would tell anyone off there and then if they started bad-mouthing anyone's mother, especially their own. No matter how much I disliked this girl, I could never say anything about her mother. No matter how much I despise people as much as the world despise Hitler, I could never, ever, ever, mention their mother within an insult.

That is the one thing that ties us together; everyone - everything. Makes us who we are. 

If you can't love your mother, you can't love anyone else. 

you probably have no idea

how much i really love you

i might not always make it clear

that there is no one above you

you are the source of who i am

i look to you for hope, love and strength

for you, i'll do what i can

even if some days, i don't go the length

i don't say or show it half the time

but i don't even need to apologise

cuz' either way you're always mine

i'm grateful you are part of my life

young love

remember your first crush? remember that funny feeling you got every time you saw that special person? you wanted to look at them, you wanted to talk to them, but you just kept blushing and ran away... ok, maybe it was just me. 

despite having my friends tease me and constantly getting embarrassed.. i want to go back to those days. i want to reach back into my past. i want to tell that kid i like liked him.. but that isn't worth it.

i miss that little kid, but he isn't that kid anymore, and i'm not that little girl. i miss those feelings, but tampering with the past does bad things to the present.. even if you don't have a time machine.

those kinds of memories will never leave your mind. i don't remember much of my primary school days anymore.. i think my brain is just making room for new memories.. just those special short moments will never fade.

looking back into your past

sometimes feel like a mistake

things you thought would last

turns out to be all fake

puppy love is what i felt

his eyes, his lips and laugh

one look, and i would melt

and that is just the start

i'd look at you

across the playground

sometimes you did too

but i'd quickly turn around

seeing you now

after all these years

makes me ask how

did i not shed a tear

when i left without a single goodbye

when you hinted me words of bliss

when i figured out it wasn't a lie

when you didn't end up being my first kiss

wishing now, i could turn back time

regretting i didn't fall for your scheme

dreaming you could still be mine

imagining the romance extreme

do you recall a little girl?

you once blushed to see

she's grown up in a separate world

hoping, again, someday you'd meet

yet, the past is still the past

no matter how much one lingers on

it is such a tedious task

to denying someone is gone

out of my life maybe

but never from my mind

always in my memories

no matter how long the time

fighting.. for nothing?

thinking about the earlier part of my life that i don't even remember; the struggle my loved ones must've gone through for me, for us. the harsh conditions, the never-ending list of troubles.. the pain. they had no idea what was gonna happen. they  just kept trying to survive day by day.. whenever i think of these things, it leads me back to war. to conflict of the fewer, that impact the many. this piece can get a little confusing because of my train of thought.. but in the end, it's just about fighting for a better tomorrow, despite whether there will be or not..

born into a world filled with mystic

wonders of the imperfectly perfect

may not have more than just a cloth

though life and love was more than enough

   

unbelievable, the emotions we had

indescribable, the burdens we dragged

unforgettable, the battles we fought

inevitable, the end that is still sought

the fight for a new beginning

the one, everyday, we are living

the one, that has no end

attack, is just a defense

why would you care

for those that are theirs

why would you spare

someone with different hair

useless little struggles

that turn to life-size puzzles

nothing we can't live without

but will be continue, no doubt

you can ask all the questions

you can venture the harsh lessons

but you won't find an answer

one day, you'll just stop the bother

there isn't anytime to wonder

lives are lost as you sit and ponder

you gotta move before they do

move, fight, or your life, you'll lose

a soldier, carries a weapon to the field

a civilian, he's family, struggling for a meal

either victims, may not survive

but at least they know, they've tried

stupidity or nature?

past relationships, movies, songs and life; the elements of this piece. people argue in many fields whether or not human nature is a strong point to rely your reasons on. i am not sure myself but seeing people fall in the same places at different times lures my thoughts. despite me composing romantic poems, i yet to know of love. just simply emotions.. at this point in my life.

roses are red

violets are blue

like blood i have bled

like my life after you

you had me at 'hi'

then lost me at 'goodbye'

i can never understand why

when or how, was i pushed aside

you lied when you told me

i was more than a priority

you lied when you made me believe

we had a future, bright and free

why give me hope

when you know there's none

how did you think i'd cope

what have you done

stupid stupid stupid!

the words stuck in my mind

can't believe what you did

can't believe i called you mine

it's so easy to blame

others for your faults

so easy to be casted shame

when not doing what you're told

care, pity, sympathy and faith

all of good will from a kind heart

but it can lead to horrible mistakes

that will tear one's life apart

i do not think of love lightly

as it carries much weight

i don't think i even know it slightly

but it brings as much as hate

torture, strength and tears

mindless actions, guilty pleasure

all the worst of painful cheers

a wounded past, an unsure future

human nature is usually to blame

we all must fall at least once in life

people and places may not be the same

but we all gotta move on or at least try

my dearest mother.,

that one special person in your life

your mum, dad, sibling, husband or wife

do they know how much you really care

do they know you'll always be there

my mother brought my into this world

and i am, forever, her darling girl

i share with her my everything

every story, every secret, every feeling

everytime we have a conversation

i can't help but think of our separation

what'll it be like without her here

where'll i be without her lead

i hope you know

you're worth more than gold

every word i write is true

don't know how i'd be without you

i want to thank you everyday

i wouldn't change you in any way

thank you for my birth

for making me what i'm worth

him && her.,

any girl would wish
to find a guy who understands
for that one special fish
to be her one and only man

that guy that knows what she wants
the one that knows exactly what to say
who would make a stance
to be with her, any day

he is head over heels in love with this girl
he is tortured without her by his side
he can’t smile without her existence in his world
his love for her is something that can’t be confide

her love for him is infinite
he’s the missing piece in her life
his heart is the only one that’d fit
in that heart-shaped hole inside

he will defend her and fight
he will understand and care
he will love and treat her right
he will always, always be there

there is so much to give and recieve
there is too much to be told
there is so much to believe
but there is only one to hold

if you’ve got this special being
treat them right, never let them slip away
because they are that one something
that will always brighten up your day