The magic is in the mystery.. but curiosity kills. The 'does he like me?' stage. The chase. The unknown. The best and worst..
love&&life.,intertwine.,
my heart beating
i say it’s for living
that’s just an excuse
it’s really beating for you
the smile on my lips
doesn’t come from just bliss
that too
is for, and because of, you
the tears aren’t from sorrow
as I look at you, they’d flow
from the happiness and gratitude
i feel when I’m with you
the songs I sing in the car
and the one that’s in my heart
it’s with you, it’s to you
it’s for you
you’re in my heart, in my mind
but even better, you’re in my life
i’m here because of the past
but I’m staying, for our future to start
dammit! i want my fish.,
i remember those days
i remember that face
i’d always smile to
i’d always say hi to
it didnt even bother me
when you didnt even speak
you turned away like i wasnt there
you didnt really seem to care
but oh well i was just being polite
cuz you happened to cross my sight
who knew how you felt inside
how i am now after such a long time
i hate myself for not bothering more
why didnt i feel this way before
when i couldve done something
now, i cant do anything
regret doesnt even come near
to how im feeling here
i dont care if theres plenty of fish in the sea
i want that one right here with me
you.,
my fortune cookie, says plan for many pleasures
but from the events lately, im feeling a little insecured
my horoscope, reckons im doing well
but all i’d hope, is to be caught if i fell
my tarot cards read, i should fight
and i will succeed, with gracious might
my family, reckons i’m able to
find what i seek, forget what i lose
my friends, tell me to believe
stick to the end, and i’ll achieve
but you know, what i say
is wherever i go, it’ll all be okay
screw fortunes, follow what you reckon
screw wisdom, just do what you can
its all got to do, with whats in you mind
its all about you, you’re one of a kind
persist or desist.,
some are filled with such confidence
taking the world by chance
flowing through decisions
surfing through at a glance
theres a bump on every road
an issue on every path
you cant just do as your told
you must follow your heart
but theres no strategy
you cant plan ahead
whatever will be, will be
nothing more can be said
confidence itself cowers in fear
what chance is there for me
nothing seems to be clear
i can barely see
im scared but im happy
i want to venture this
but fear is reaping the best of me
can this lead to true happiness
you’ll never know
unless you take a chance
wherever you may go
the truth is within the distance
life’s road can go on forever
but you’re not alone
once you see that person there
you’ll never again be on your own
but how do i keep you here
what am i suppose to do
i dont want you to fear
you’re something i cant bare to lose
i cant do it on my own
you’re my sense of security
dont leave me alone
you really are all i need
tell me how you feel
i can wait forever
but my heart cant sit still
i dont want this to wither
how much longer
do i have to persist
just tell me whether
we really exist
i dont want to give up
but i dont like the dark
we’ll make it through the rough
just tell me whats in your heart
who knew a single emotion
could contain so much
this specific distinction
from as little as a touch
in the end
i just want to know
is what i fight and defend
worth the woe
abstruse.,
endeavor will, through troubled times
we strive for what we keep in mind
in love, in hate; we lose our sight
or have always been blinded from the light
hours, days, weeks and months
time makes even the sharpest, blunt
these facts do not exclude you and i
myself, like others, have drifted to the sides
but you drove me into your arms
when i put myself in harm
in harm of losing care
for the emotion that we share
i have tried deviating you
away from my mind, and heart, too
then i felt the pain and sorrow
that you bleed and hold
never did you blame me
understanding, is what you seek
i feel so confuse
when i feel the mind of you
you are the winds to my sail
my strength when i’m about to fail
you guide me to a place of serenity
where your love is all i can see
i question why you do what you do for me
when in return, i’ve only been that way for me
it twists and turns my thoughts
figuring how i deserve the kind you’ve brought
the love i once had has indeed faded
but to me, a new world, you’ve made
one that is different from what we had
but in a way that makes me glad
i will never figure out this equation
but i would rather be lost in the confusion
for i am the centre of this true and happy place
its blessed me happiness, and tears, not a trace
i love you and i won’t stop
until i’ve had enough
of paradise, of heaven, of your love,
of all that keeps the light shining from above..
lost.,
why do we want
what we’ve been denied
when they say we cant
we feel the will to defy
it never really is clear
why we are this way
towards challenges we’d steer
even if the chances are vague
who i am is happy, wild and free
what i am is undefinable
why i am is why everyone loves me
where i am i’ll never have a clue
though why is it when im with you
my defense is run
i really dont want to
but what else havent i done?
and you should know
i care so deeply
not a single tear is false
nor a single word is cheesy
what i felt could’ve grown
but you didnt want it to
now it can stay hidden and unknown
to me, it seems cruel
i cant forget our slow dance
or the memory of you holding me
i try to at every chance
but those thoughts are all i can see
i’d hope this turn out for the better
and for it to be like the old days
i’d be feeling this way whether
you agreed or walked away
but i have given in
now its all up to you
i can take the hint
i can stop acting the fool
i wont say it was love
but it was strong
i hope this is enough
to decide where we belong
the chase.,
this moment
i say i’m over you
next second
i jump back in the pool
i do, i don’t
there is no line
i will, i won’t
or it’s just very fine
i hear so much
but i don’t want to listen
‘he said such and such’
but to me he says nothing
when we are apart
is when i’m true
to the heart
and to you
it’s when i smile and laugh
it’s when i goof around
when i go off the charts
when i’m every sound
then you show up
and everything slips
my confidence shuts
no bravery exists
awkward silence
is highly avoided
at every chance
so fighting’s our choice
'so what if he doesnt like me’
'so what if she likes that guy’
‘his not the type i seek’
‘i am not shy!’
the skills we need
acting, faking
so they won’t see
but it doesn’t do a thing
no matter how hard you try
its never good enough
to decieve your own eye
to others is just as tough
going up and down
on an emotional wave
smiles and frowns
makes our days
stranger.,
what i’d do to see your face
right here, right now
back to that memory, i’d chase
just to be with you somehow
hidden away my dignity
to express these words
because it seems in reality
i can’t make it any worse
no matter how much i’d say
or how much i’d write
there is no way
to capture your sight
i can only try so hard
i can’t go for much longer
i’ve gone beyond too far
still i’m no different to a stranger
