past.,

A glimpse into my past. The first one was for an assignment. The other pieces I wrote for events that occurred. I have to admit that these aren't very positive and joyful... but they have a lot of meaning.

the soldier.,

birthed by fate

grew with faith

raised with might

lived with pride

life was joyful and clear

there was no fear

living day by day

love didn’t seem to fade

surrounded by simplicity

struggled with reality

drowned in ignorance

yearned for chance

pierced by burning rage

lashed out by betrayal

wounded by power

scarred the world

fought through ache

after freedom, we chased

burdened by expectations

‘til death or nothing

you win some, you lose some.

surrounded by love, i thought i was in luck.

now seeing it clearly, it just sucks.


i cant look at you in the eye.

no one can begin to apologise.

because this pain, is one of a kind.

nothing you say can change my mind.

i had no idea you felt this way.

but didnt you ever felt the need to say?

what hateful sin have a put upon you?

for you, for so long, to act so cruel?

i look back at our memories.

the act, the horror, i just cant believe.

i cannot believe how incredible you are.

with skills like that, you deserve to be a rotten star.

just the sound of your voice now

makes my ears feel fowl.

your presence near mine

makes it near impossible to feel fine.

but im cutting you off, making it right

away from my mind, away from my life.

im not angry, upset or sad anymore

thats only to people i care for.

dear heaven.,

dear heaven

open your gates wide

dear heaven

welcome this friend of mine

if they arent here with me

i want them to rest

in the world of peace

in the place of happiness

i dont think time can heal this loss

so why not celebrate what’s been

though if i could, at any cost

i would go back and change what happened

i’ve never shed a tear for you

until this very instant

when i’ve finally taken in the truth

that you indeed, are very distant

but you will never escape my memories

you will never be forgotten

you are always with me

forever, my dearest friend

an unfortunate attraction.,

captured by the voice

imprisoned by the music

a forceful choice

i couldnt defy it

i knew from the first sight of you

we would fall into temptation

i knew we would lose

an unfortunate attraction

those lyrics still surrounding my thoughts

the rhythm beating with my heart

i have tried, i have fought

to tear it all apart

within the sweet moments

i felt the bitterness

with all thats happened

there won’t be any happiness

intruding my dreams

invading my thoughts

running, isnt as easy as it seems

as it isnt as hard being caught

i weaken, when i think of you

i feel heartbreak when i think of us

i cant get myself not to

i just..

i cant just be a witness

i must be the executioner

i cant exist in this distress

i must move on, step further

you will leave me in silence

you will not be able to protest

you will never be in my presence

you will let my emotions rest

from everything you’ve done

for us or for your own good

i just cant condone

i dont think i ever could