Lead Me.

How many romances have bloomed upon the dancefloor? How many have ended there? It can be the most wonderful place to lose yourself... in the music, in the moment. Where it can truely be just the two people and everyone else is just a blur. 

It is there that I truely fell for him. It is there that I'll always remember him. It is there that we'll never be again.

it only takes a pair

to fill a dancefloor

for applause to fill the air

for uncertainty to turn assured


one step forward

leads one step back

bringing two, clustered

and us on the right track


we may stumble at times

not every step can be perfect

but knowing we’ll be fine

makes every step worth it


my world can be spun

out of complete control

but i know you’ll be the one

to catch me when it’s time to fall


i know we felt like one

in that very moment

and to that very song

the rest of the world was silenced


but when the music stopped

the feelings didn’t do the same

and how i’d hoped

we’d dance that dance again


but it’ll never happened

for reality has resumed

we have finally awakened

from that dream, that illusion

Sweet Memories.

Memories. It's a place in the past we sometimes go to for comfort, when the present just isn't good enough. It's also a place that holds our lives together. It can also be a place where dreams are blurred... Where the lines between the truth and the wanted become unclear. 

I've got so many great, amazing memories that I never dare to forget. My first bike, my first crush, my first Summer romance... etc. Memories of people in life. Family. Friends. Best Friends. 

The thing is, I love those memories and I cherish it so, so much. But I'd never want to relive it. This is because, nothing you do in the present can live up to a great memory; a great memory cannot be duplicated or bested. 

I've liked and admired. I've lived a dream. My Summer romances in Vietnam have been innocent and amazing. But everytime I return to Vietnam, it's never the same story, we can never pick up where we left off. Because we have two things against us, distance and time.

i'll never forget that moment

when i saw you for the first time

how our first date went

anything but smooth and fine

so young and so stupid

we couldn't say a thing

astonishing, it even started

even despite the arguing

but we lived in that moment

we didn't think about the Fall

how our time together was spent

how we could've had it all

we barely spoke a day

but what was, was enough

it all sent me into such a daze

i never felt like giving up

until i left and then came back

then realised what had happened

everything was spinning out of whack

everything. us. weakened.

but nothing hurts more 

than seeing your face

trying so hard to ignore

the fact you've been replaced

but you never even fought

was it not good enough for you?

so then everything i've thought

was it just me being a fool?

i'll never forget our memories

as i can't ever make new ones

not the same, anyway, like you and me

as the saying goes, what's done, is done

i still reminisce our days

the confession, the date

long walks at night along the bay

the calls, the fights, the wait

it may be four thousand miles

but i hope and wish you all the best

to always have a great smile

to find great love to confess

Today was one of those days that hit me like a Spring breeze!

[ Weird simile? I know... ]

All of last weekend I was just happy about the simplest thing... being able to leave my bedroom window open all day and night because the weather was just so lovely. Just that lovely fresh, flora-scented atmosphere made me think about great, Spring memories. It's just a rush of images and so on, but it was a nice moment. 

Now, back to today, I woke up to a lovely blue sky, and bright sunshine, and to the tune of my favourite song. Great start to the day? YES! I took my time getting ready because class didn't start til 10am... I planned to make fried rice for lunch but I burnt the rice... despite rushing out of the house and missing my bus, I still had a smile on my face. I thought I was going to be late but I was still early. 

The wait for the bus, the bus ride, the walk from the bus stop to Uni... everything was just so nice. I had a fun class. It was the first time this year, in class, that I laughed uncontrollably and laughed until I forgot what I was laughing about... I haven't had that kind of freedom of laughter since the end of year 12 last year.

The day continues as I made my way over to the other campus. Made it there in time to catch up with a friend and print off my essay. I then headed to my tutorial where I found one of the most happiest moments of Uni life so far. It was just the class, my friends, standing around... talking. Bags chucked on the floor - shoes off? And we were all just standing there, talking, catching up from the holidays. Class commences with a presentation that most of the class got involved in - there was a lot of laughter. 

I skipped my lecture to get food and take a break... Oh I learnt one thing, that is to never leave a bottle of Solo opened near Bonnie. She spills. All over the pile of books Anthony picked out and left there to dust... We went off to our next tutorial and I found our I got High Distinction for my presentation. That was just the icing on the cake!

It's been 2 months since my last post. This is due to a lot of reasons... My social life resumed. My academic life... never actually stopped. And my love life... scarred me a little. My emotions were therefore buried and I had no motivation or inspiration to write. Today, it came back... Just a little, but it's a start of a better beginning.